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Brock ... You are going home... That's great news... Take each day at a time and you'll be fine... You must be special, I haven't been on the site since Oct. and here I am, 2 days in a row checking in to see how your doing ... Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.. GOOD LUCK BUDDY.....
 
That’s great news Brock! Blitz and I went for an afternoon stroll in the woods to clear lots of heavy thoughts bouncing around my head. I was thinking of you and your family while we were wandering and love to see your update.

Keep fighting the good fight brother! We know it’s not easy, but we also know that you can do this!! We’ll keep raising you up in our prayers! 🙏🏼
 
Time for a quick update:
I came home from the James on Tuesday. It was nice to be here of course. I cannot level a single bad word regarding the care received at both Adena and the James. Both facilities were outstanding. After a hospital stay I am always left highly impressed with the care given daily by the nursing staff and their assistants. They are truly special people and they must have to deal with some awful patients because without fail I’ve been told I’m a great patient- and I do absolutely nothing for those accolades aside from attempting to not be a nuisance. My only guess is others are often more demanding???? Regardless, I’ve met a lot of fine people recently and have no idea how these special people maintain caring on a daily basis.

If I had been able to eat , even the food would have been satisfactory. No complaints anywhere. I dealt with a number of doctors, all of which were great. The doctor I have seen at the James for the last year and half or so never made an appearance- which is fine with me as I hold a very low opinion of him due to his arrogance and general demeanor. I have no idea why a man with his batting average would be such an egotistical prick. lol. I did make it a point to let the folks know he was a contributing factor in my decision to stop “treatment “.

Yesterday I had appointments with an oncologist that will be doing some radiation on my spine next week. Apparently I’ve acquired tumors that have degraded my spine It will not extend life expectancy but the hope is it will stifle the tumors as is. If I do not do these treatments, it is likely the pain I feel will greatly increase and the likely hood of paralysis increases. The doctors seem to be surprised my spine has not collapsed completely already. That is a blessing and I know it! So, I am even more thankful to God above for that. For any of you that have not had the “mask” made for spinal radiation treatment, be thankful no one has given you a description of that ordeal. lol. I’ll spare the details but it is survivable… but I had my doubts there for a few. lol.

My brother came 40 miles from his home yesterday to drive me to and from the hospital in spite of insisting I didn’t need his help. I can’t express my gratitude as I spent the entire trip puking, both ways. My poor brother was a trooper and it was time well spent between hurls. He really is not the same older brother I fought with at every opportunity through childhood.

I’ve always known the difference between friends and acquaintances. I have a lot of acquaintances. In fact, Seth and others have accused me of “knowing everyone “ At times. But this whole thing has shown me that I actually have a true friend circle that is much greater than I’d have ever taken the time to inventory. It’s been humbling. It’s shown me how amazingly blessed I’ve been in this life. As just one example, I have to mention just what I’ve seen today:

There are several variations of “off label” treatments that the medical cabal has tried to bury. Our own Mickey has reached out with what has been working with he and his wife. I’ve tried some of the easier to work protocols with little success so while I do not fear death, if I can do something to help with quality living going forward, I’ll try. I enlisted the thoughts of my friend Tony who is a naturalist, retired pharmacist, (sold his pharmacy a couple years ago), a genius really, and one of my best bird hunting buddies. Tony has searched out what he believes to be the best “off label “ attack for this cancer. It involves a things most doctors will not prescribe and are not easily tracked down. I sent the list to my family doctor, who is also a personal friend with the backbone to do whatever I want regardless of possible backlash from the cabal. Fortunately I have another close friend who still owns his own pharmacy. Of course we became friends through bird and bow hunting too. So he got a copy of “Tony’s protocol “ early this morning. He started sourcing right away and letting me know what I needed to have Dr.Alex writing scripts for. We have had a long day of texting amongst my “team” all day. And we aren’t done, but things are aligning. I’d be completely lost in this thing if it were not for these friends going above and beyond anything I ask.
Cont…
 
So that is where things stand right now. Good friends working to make sure we don’t go down without the best fight we can wage.

A few thoughts that may serve no purpose, and may give solace to someone at some point:
I am not a good example of a Christian. It would not take a long or steady look to point at me and claim I deserve to go to hell, and the accusers would be right. The key phrase though, Gods grace. If you’re not right with Jesus, I suggest looking first at that phrase.

I grew up in church. I learned many things about the workings of society through simple observations of our church. I remember vividly thinking it strange how many people dying of cancer would pray for more time on earth. I’m talking about folks that never missed a service. They had lived a life of preparation for this moment- yet the fear of death had them clinging to a painful existence here. It never made sense to me.

Even as a child I viewed the typical cancer-caused death as a blessing. Why? What aside from a drawn out death gives a person the ability to tell their family how much they love and appreciate them? What other death provides the chance to leave it all on the table for those we are leaving behind? We have never had an issue in my immediate family saying “I love you “. I’ve always know each time I see someone, it may well be the last, so I’ve not been one to keep my appreciation of folks a secret - at least with immediate family.

I’ve received a number of heartfelt PM’s since this thread has started. They have touched me deeply. They have been a real blessing, fellas. If I had just walked into traffic I’d have never had the gift of reading those messages. Each one has been appreciated. And it’s important to me that you all know my time spent with you all here and in person on occasion, has greatly enriched the quality of my life. You are a special group of men I am happy to have grown to know and love. So maybe I’m crazy for thinking cancer is a gift, it’s how I feel. If things go as predicted for me, don’t cry for me. But if you are the praying type, I’d appreciate if you’d director a few towards my family and those that will be affected by my passing. There is simply nothing we can do to stop the pain they will feel or I’d have already ordered it from Amazon.

And I said a short update…. Pfft
 
Thank you Brock for such a heartfelt post considering your circumstances. Some truly sincere words and thoughts to ponder and chew on for all of us.
Hang in there and my thoughts and prayers continue for you and your family. Love ya buddy👍🏻🙏❤️
 
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That's as good of an update as a heart-breaking one could be. You're inspiring people in ways that are hard to describe, but getting a glimpse of how one of my most respected friends is handling his own mortality, has been a power message for me. I hope the off-label stuff is as effective as it can be!