So here I am thinking I can handle this stuff myself, I've always been that way.
As a man you think you can simply step up and take control....and fix the broken things.
That's exactly how I felt with my 9 year old niece's brain cancer. I was ready to sell my house to fund her and go homeless.
I found I had control over absolutely nothing, other then my Hope and Prayer.
In the end, she died a peaceful death.
Not what I had prayed for by any means but at least it was a painless and peaceful exit as having slept for the last 2-3 days.
Our prayers are with you and Mom.