I'm not as much bitching and complaining as I am being realistic about what is going on right now both in the woods, and in my heart. I'm questioning whether being only a bowhunter given the current day dynamics, is really a good decision in regards to my overall enjoyment of Gods greatest creation. Right now, I am pouring my heart, soul, blood, sweat, free time and money in to being a bowhunter; all the while missing out on so many other great outdoor pursuits. I can tell you right now if the deer numbers were up and I was routinely seeing deer and seeing a decent to good rut every year, I would never have the thoughts. But as the years pass with shitty ruts and the numbers drop, they take my overall sightings and enjoyment with them. If it is just about being outdoors and enjoying the pursuit of game, while "finding" myself and being with God, I can do that so many other ways...
I love to bowhunt and there is nothing like arrowing a big buck IMO. But you know what really makes the hair stand up on the back of my next and puts a smile on my face? The sound of a flock of geese going overhead or ducks whistling in the wind. When I started that shit, people warned me to be careful or I would give up bowhunting. I could not even fathom that thought at the time. Three years have passed since then and my desire to seriously waterfowl is building steam. My wife has been BEGGING to go for a while now, so it would be something we could do together and I'd love that. I miss shooting guns as I have all but given that up over the past few years. I don't even shoot at the farm so as to not disturb the deer, but it is a great place to shoot trap and rifles. We have squirrels, rabbits, and yotes out the wahzoo. We even have chances to field hunt geese at certain times. That farm can give me so much more than it has as a bowhunting only location.
I have one more year in me and it will most likely determine what direction I head. Next year, I will provide 2-3 acres of high quality forage for the local deer herd. If that does not change things after two years of only killing one doe from 140 some acres, then I'm throttling back the bowhunting and gearing up to be a more well rounded sportsmen...